I have heard it said before,”God doesn’t close one door without opening another”. I have also heard it said before, “the wait in the hallway is hell”. There are transitionary times in my recovery, where the only extraordinary things happening are the ordinary ones, and I brace for a long stay in the hallway. This… Continue reading The Neutral Zone
Why can’t I stop drinking? Because I am an alcoholic. It is really that simple (until you do a 4th step). I remember getting so frustrated with myself wondering why, WHY, did I drink again! My mom would continually ask me why I couldn’t not drink, despite desperate pleas to stop and Doctor’s orders. Every… Continue reading Why Can’t I Stop Drinking…
In about a week, I to go on a business trip with some people, who I would consider “heavy” drinkers, and it reminded me of a fundamental lesson I needed to learn in sobriety. “No” is a complete sentence. In early sobriety, I felt like I needed to explain my non-drinking to every person who… Continue reading NO.
I work in a job where all day people ask me how I am doing. My typical response is either “Living the dream,” or “Just another day in paradise.” I say that semi-sarcastically depending on the day (Monday much more than Friday). I started saying this on the craziest, busiest of days, in hopes I… Continue reading Paradise
One of the things on the back of an AA coin is the phrase, “To thine own self be true”. This is a powerful phrase for me, and I am sure you will hear me reference it often. I believe that this phrase is a big piece of what it means to have a spiritual awakening.… Continue reading To Myself Be True
Someone asked me today what I typically do on Saturday nights. “Uhhh….sleep? Sometimes dinner,” I responded. She caught me off guard, as what to do on a Saturday night has not been a problem in a long time. However, getting sober at the ripe old age of 21 has definitely changed how I define fun.… Continue reading New Normals
I sign attendance sheets all the time. I sign in at work conferences, important meetings, DIY work shops, probation – lots of places. One place I have never signed in is at an AA meeting. This past week the church where my homegroup meets asked us to make everyone sign an attendance roster. *Insert head scratches*… Continue reading Bueller, Bueller, Bueller….